Napak Tilas untuk Tiba Kembali Padamu (Pilgrimage to Arrive Back to You)

2024, color film, 32 mins

Fragments of images and words taken from my personal diaries from 2017-2024, mostly in my mother tongue. This journey through my personal archive, touching issues of colonialism, identity, and relationships, is like getting reacquainted with a past Me who is still living in parallel - as if they are sitting next to me. The gendershifting narrator, a different voice for each different diary entry, attempts to acknowledge the collective cacophony that births and shapes an individual. A song named rage, confusion, depression, joy and pride.

Film credits

Raras Umaratih (director, editing, translation, subtitles, script, sound)

Amamanita Axaxaxanax Glass Seer (audio mixing)

This film is currently streaming on the online streaming platform Cinelogue until August 2026, and is available for free in the Indonesian territories.

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